More than anyone. To be honest, I never would've considered it either.
[Which is why it's throwing him off so much. It was so much more simple when he was able to be at Alexei's side when needed and then fuck off to Dahngrest when he wasn't- not having to factor feelings into the equation. Alexei has always been the same way, if not even more so as of late...
Ugh, he's not going to read into that, it's bad enough already. It sure would've been better for everyone involved if his one drunk braincell didn't have to speak up so loudly!!]
You're my superior, and I'm supposed to serve you, not...
[He gestures vaguely, unsure how to properly phrase it. Beyond their professional relationship, there's also everything else that Alexei has put him through. There's a reason why he tries to shut off his emotions while he's Schwann, so this... It's so messy and complicated.]
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[Which is why it's throwing him off so much. It was so much more simple when he was able to be at Alexei's side when needed and then fuck off to Dahngrest when he wasn't- not having to factor feelings into the equation. Alexei has always been the same way, if not even more so as of late...
Ugh, he's not going to read into that, it's bad enough already. It sure would've been better for everyone involved if his one drunk braincell didn't have to speak up so loudly!!]
You're my superior, and I'm supposed to serve you, not...
[He gestures vaguely, unsure how to properly phrase it. Beyond their professional relationship, there's also everything else that Alexei has put him through. There's a reason why he tries to shut off his emotions while he's Schwann, so this... It's so messy and complicated.]