[Ah.

It was so much easier to try to keep this professional, though. But he knows that isn't what he wanted, anyway. He's dying tomorrow, and there's so much he's never gotten to say because Alexei never needed to hear what he thought. If Alexei's giving him permission, then he should...]

I heard what you said to Makoto. I... For a long time, I did resent you. To the point where I wanted to stay as Raven forever if ever given the chance.

[At the start of all of this, he said that his wish was likely the same as Alexei's.

It wasn't.]

But the time we spent here made me think about it more. About...certain feelings I didn't even realize you had for me. And what you said to Makoto really drove it home that...despite that, I couldn't stop the guilt from eating at me when you would speak to me of your dreams, even if I was starting to lose sight of what you were even trying to do.

[He just wanted to turn his emotions off as he always had, because that's what a good tool with no will of its own does.]

I didn't want for you to die and not even get to that wish finally fulfilled.

[...and even then, he still can't fully spit it out.]