I honestly didn't think I did. Given my circumstances, I suppose...I didn't see much point in it. [Why would a doll unfit to make its own decisions deserve to pursue romance? Who would ever want to be with what amounts to an empty shell?] But something about this week just got me thinking. Maybe it's all the alcohol.

[It's easy to blame things on the alcohol.

But that excuse doesn't work so well when he has to factor Alexei into the equation. Why Alexei? He ponders it over in a few moments of silence.]

I find it difficult to put into words, in this moment. Admittedly my thought process is a little lacking right now. [He literally can't help but blame the alcohol for that.] But somewhere along the way, in those ten years...maybe I didn't see my loyalty to you as simply an obligation.

[As for when he lost it again, he can't really say. But it obviously wasn't gone for good, if tonight has taught him anything.]